Holiday plans are getting a bit clearer. I talked about it in my own therapy this morning, and Chris said that actually she wasn't planning to work that week either. So we'd have a break from therapy anyway. Which means I now have an uninterrupted week to run free around the UK! :^) I'm planning to ...

I'm very glad I had my own therapy this morning. Brought my dream, and all the 4th year stuff. Said some of the things I don't want to say in the group. I don't want to go off like a landmine - that won't get me what I want/need anyway. It was good to have a space to let myself go off, without doing...

Woke up this morning, checked how I felt and thought: I'm not going to make it to Voice class tonight. I'm disappointed not to be there now, but I am very tired and wobbly, and I feel like I need the downtime more. Spent a lot of my own therapy crying and feeling sad, and shakey from terror and diso...

I was very glad for my own therapy this morning. I was speeding up, Chris pointed that out, and also let me know she could just about keep track. I slowed down, and then I could feel how scared I am. I'm really, really scared. At the same time, I also know what I need to do. It's already hard to do ...

Since Xmas I've been dreaming about water a lot, especially flooded rooms. I was talking about it in my own therapy this morning. Last night I dreamt about a bricked up sacred spring inside a house. So that theme is still recurring. I couldn't get much of a handle on what the water was about in ther...

My own therapy yesterday morning was largely me going ARGH 4th YEAR ARGH PROCESS LIKE MY FAMILY DYNAMICS TRIGGERING ME ARGH GETTING SO STRESSED AND IRRITATED ABOUT IT GRRR ARGH FEEL SO WOBBLY BECAUSE I DON'T JUST WANT TO DRIFT INTO TRAINING BUT AM PASSIONATE ABOUT IT AND WANT TO BE CHOICEFUL SO I NE...

Therapy today was largely me thinking: Do I ever want to have kids? (I think about this more lately.) Followed shortly by: MY FEELING RATTLED ABOUT 4TH YEAR LET ME SHOW YOU IT! It was good to have time and space to look at how I was feeling... At one point I said to Chris: I feel very borderline! Sh...

Well, I saw my client. And I think that went OK. :^) *** I felt nervous and excited beforehand, and also well supported. Friends have been happy and excited for me. My supervisor at the placement was there in advance, and helped me get all the paperwork together. She was around afterwards, and so I ...

I enjoyed Elizabeth Bear's Undertow . Especially the aliens, who were complex and interesting, and were characters in their own right. I'd have happily enjoyed hearing about even more of their culture. And the humans weren't bad either. ;^) I particularly liked how many of the characters (human and ...

I talked with Chris about the 40 hour thing. And then I've clarified it with Peter. A 50 min therapy hour counts as an hour (that was one of the things I wasn't sure about, in terms of logging!) And the UKCP requirement is 4 years in total, rather than any particular period. That helps, because I wa...