My ordination was February 14th.Today is the first day since then that my energy has felt normal.That's quite probably the longest high I've ever been on.Somewhat to my surprise, I'm not crashing.I should probably thank the daily magical-energy practices I've been doing. As things settle out, I'm aw...

I've been keenly aware that I haven't posted much of substance here in quite some time. The tides of my life have been dominated by the kinds of spiritual work and experiences that I don't usually express on unfiltered entries, and there's been an erotic element which I also tend to veil here. But p...

Via pathdancer Where did you meet your mate? In the center of a labyrinth on my magic island.(No, I'm not kidding.) What was the first thought that went through your head when you met? What the hell have I gotten myself into?? Do you remember what he/she was wearing? Blue jeans and a t-shirt. Wire r...

I saw this video on a friend's LJ, and as I watched it I could hear uncrowned_king howling with laughter all the way from the otherworld. He'd had some bad experiences in Australia long ago and used to growl that "everything in the f*ing place can kill you -- even those damned koala bears!" This is ...

You know that "acceptance phase" I felt I'd reached? Shot straight to hell by the prospect of a family gathering without him, as well as seeing all those "To My Husband" Father's Day cards. I was crying in the aisle in the grocery store -- something I haven't done in ages. There are other buttons be...

I believe that however deep my grief at his passing, when Lohain died to his body a year ago this morning, he passed into a life far richer than this one. I believe that he escaped a prison and took up a kind of work he was Called to do but was seldom able to do here. I believe he continues to exist...

I was on Whidbey Island, the summer of 1977, when I started writing the story in which my daimon appeared. During all the years later, I wrote theme and variation on that lover, my daimon: not the actor, but the guardian on the threshold, the initiator and challenger, the warrior, the prince, the fi...

*Extra points for the geeks who get the reference. After I made thge emptiness post last night, I went upstairs to do my usual spiritual practice -- but when I got to my bedroom, Uncrowned_King told me not to worry about it, to just come to bed so he could hold me. (Which was probably a first. He al...

I was brushing my hair, gazing at the silver mirror but seeing nothing, when my husband came up behind me and caught me around the waist. “I hate spring,� he growled into my neck. His hand came up under my hair, pulling my head back. I dropped the brush, reached back to capture his own head in m...

Last Spring, when we went on our romantic retreat for Lohain's birthday, he bought me a simple hematite ring. A few weeks later, I started wearing it on my left hand, and I've continued to wear it. Until 10 minutes ago when I was screaming-crying in the shower and slamming my palms against the tile ...