Hello ex and soon-to-be-ex-smokers! Well the price of cigarettes have just gone up again to fifty cents. Another good reason to quit. I have been wanting to quit and getting mentally ready to quit for quite awhile now...but they say to work on one addiction at a time. This is where it gets difficult...

Yesterday was my sixth visit with my counselor (first one in two years). After our last visit I could tell that she wasn't a good fit. Today really solidified that, after I did all the talking and she just sort of sighed and went "Huh" every few minutes and stared at the ground or looking ...

(No pun intended, really). I just had a really ugly incident where I was assaulted on the bus by a crazy woman. Granted, I probably shouldn't have been on that bus to begin with; it was rush-hour and I was going to go window-shopping in my 'old neighborhood' to kill some time before I met with a fri...

I came very close to going out tonight. I took out some money from the ATM with the intent to go to the fabric store to get what I need for a dress that I'm going to make, all the while secretly hoping I wouldn't find what I wanted so I could use the money to buy wine instead. Went to the fabric sto...

My ex just told me for the last time that it's really truly over and rather bluntly in a text msg. It's been over for a long time, I just held onto hope that it would work out eventually, now I know once and for all, that it won't. Now I have none of my usual vices, coffee, cigarettes or chocolate t...

Lately, I've been realizing that a major obstacle to what's been holding me back in life is a deep fear of success. I think this is directly tied to my mother. Whether she instilled it in me herself (at some times she did), or if it's guilt, I've always been afraid of becoming happy and successful t...

Earlier tonight I came across a baby picture of my mother that makes me want to cry every time I see it. There is a look of fear and anguish in her eyes, and I know where it comes from (I'll get to that in a second). But everytime I see that photo, all my anger towards her simply evaporates and I ju...

Lately, with the break-up of my former best-friend and the beginnings of some new friendships, I've been thinking about my social life lately. I have always liked being alone. I never saw anything wrong with it until a couple of people in my life remarked on it negatively, and implied that there was...

I started writing a chapter in my book about my relationship with my mother this morning and then I came here and decided that maybe it's time to tell my story. I've been focused on my own sobriety so much lately, that I guess I put the childhood stuff on the back-burner but I think I'm ready now. M...

Last night was really hard, tonight is much worse. I really wanted to drink tonight. I walked past my old bar not once, not twice, but three times debating on whether or not to go in. A large part of me still wants to make a fourth trip. I bought myself some chocolate, and some things to keep my bus...